My life is to make everything around me beautiful.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

If I Had Some Wishes

First of all, an eye candy graphic for you to copy and print as you wish.
~*~

I watched this video put out by my church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and realized this is why I create. "Do not let the voice of critics paralyze you." This is my motto for life. If I had a few wishes these would be at the top of my list definitely. Creating and Loving.

My heart is still very tender, maybe much more so than usual as I do have a very tender and soft heart. Oh, I mug around and pretend I'm not so soft but I am. I even admit it, but when others hurt the ones you love and especially your children, your protection mode goes into overdrive. I cannot even describe what it's like.

But in the afterthoughts of this tragic episode I've come to what I consider a "revelation" or "epiphany" and it is this: the incident was a trial for ME. Not my son, but me. He had to suffer for me to learn something valuable. Oh, I think he learned something also but I don't know what it was. But I'm clear on what mine was. It's forgiveness. And it didn't take me long to learn it. I haven't "perfected" it as of yet but I think I'm being given some tools to help me learn how.


~*~

How do I love thee? So in the recent tragedy with our son being beaten severely I found solace in this video put out by my church.